People all over the world take on some incredible challenges for personal achievement and/or to raise funds for charity. There are some truly amazing things people have done and now that I’ve decided to take on what (for me) is such a huge challenge, it has occurred to me that very rarely do people share the training journey. I’m not really sure why that is, but for me that’s where the really hard work is. No-one goes out and puts their body through such intense physical strain without having done some form of training. So, I want to share my journey, it’s going to be a complete rollercoaster!
In my last blog I explained why I’ve chosen the charity I have (have a read). It’s 27 years since my younger sister died. Grief still hits me unexpectedly and sweeps my legs out from under me. May is the toughest month of the year, with it being both her birthday and the anniversary of her death. So, that time of year is really tough for me. I take each day as it comes, but try not to let the darkness consume me. Anyone who knows me would say I’m a pretty positive person, I can pull positives from most situations. So when I feel low, its the worst feeling ever.
Why am I sharing this? Because we need to talk about mental health more. Everyone experiences the loss of a loved one at some point in their life. While grief isn’t the same for everyone, by sharing our experiences we can help others to understand that it really is ok to be not ok. Talking about the loss of a loved one isn’t always easy but, for me at least, its a hell of a lot easier than holding it all in and trying to internalise it all, hoping it will go away.
I have now received my fundraising pack from Child Bereavement UK. Opening the package and seeing everything they’ve sent me made me feel quite emotional. This journey is about so much more than just running 100 miles. It’s the hours and miles put in during the training, its the pain I will undoubtedly go through while training as my body questions why on earth I thought this was a good idea, its the emotions I will go through both because of the strain on my body but also the reason why I’m doing it.
I’m now in week seven of marathon training. Having gone so well for the first five weeks, it all went a bit wrong last week. I’m not good with running in the heat and so I only ran once during the week, and then having gone so many days without exercise, I just didn’t feel like running at the weekend. This week I have to get back on track as my long runs are now 16 miles plus, this is where it starts getting tough!
Don’t forget, you can sponsor me here…